mz_lulu

Feb. 2nd, 2009

WOAHH!!!

What an interesting start to the year!

I haven't blogged in a while but I've been busy busy busy!

Ok.. so our (Australia's) summer started off with some shockingly cold days in comparison to years passed, but I think we spoke too soon. We went through 3 consecutive days of 43+ degrees (celsius) and boy was it AWESOME! The weather has cooled down from that but still generally in the 30's. I'm very much a summer person and even in the sweltering heat, with sweat dripping down my face, I am happy! =)

Myself and 6 friends/family members headed to Torquay for Australia Day long weekend. We stayed at a beach house there and ~~almost drowned~~ swam at the beach and ~~burnt~~ tanned veryyyy nicely! We also had a foosball table there and I was kicking butt! It was a good get-away for the weekend, but I dreaded work the following Tuesday. We didn't come back until Monday so there wasn't enough time to adjust to being home and having to work again haha.

In other news, I have begun my lifestyle change and have been smoke-free for 4 whole days so far and I'm feeling great!! The next step is buying an exercise bike (in about 2 weeks) so I can start improving my health and fitness. Go team Lulu!

I totally overuse exclamation marks, but I'm excited!!!

My mummy comes back this weekend from her 3 month trip overseas. I've missed her sooooo much and can't wait until she's home again. I'm going to make sure I appreciate the time I have with her from now on because I really didn't think I'd miss her as much as I have. I guess I'm mummy's little girl at heart..

Hope you're enjoying your summer/winter! =)

Jan. 5th, 2009

New year.. new Lulu?

Well, it's that time of year again - January (lol).

What a great start to the new year it has been. New years eve (day) I work up with a stye on my eye and couldn't see (yay.. NOT)!

The stye went down and it was off to the infamous Sensation White party. Gosh it was awesomely awesome! Seriously people! The atmosphere cannot be described!

Drunken photos can be found here:

here:

and here:

I did have sexy sexy shoes on (as usual) and I have no idea why no pics were taken of said shoes.. but this is them (bought on sale from Shoozbiz for $49)!

I hope you all had a safe and happy new year! GO 2009! I think it will be a great year!

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Dec. 29th, 2008

...

I'm surrounded by people who love me every day.. yet I feel so alone.

I want my mummy.. =(

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Dec. 24th, 2008

Good tidings we bring, to you and your kin..

This time of year always makes me reflect on the year gone by, where I was at in my life a year ago and where I am at now. My career, how well or not so well I've done, my love life, my friendships, my family life and most importantly how I've grown in the past year.

Compared to this time last year, I'm earning $16,000 more annually in a higher (better) position, within a company that appreciates me and my hard work.

I'm still single, but I think I'm ALMOST ok with it, ALMOST maybe even happy and content with the possibility of never loving someone else (I love ME)!

I have basically stopped talking to a friend I saw almost as a sibling. I gained new friends who I thought I would share that bond with once again, only to realise that the new friendships were just like highschool fake friendships. I've learnt to treasure the close friends who are now like family and I learnt to deal with losing the friendships I have lost without being sad because I realise if they were worth it, they would still be in my life.

Spending around a month and a half without my mum made me value the times she was near and I regret the times I could just walk up to her and hug her.. but didn't. I learnt that maybe boys aren't so selfish and are willing to help out with the chores (even if baked goods were used to coerce). I have learnt not to take these people for granted, because one day they will be gone. I regret not being able to see my grandfather before he passed away and I don't want to have to feel the pain that caused ever again. I have learnt that it's not so hard to possibly move out of home and have to fend for myself, despite my mum always telling me it would be. I think she just never wants her little girl to grow up.

I have grown so much as a person since last year and am grateful for all things (good and bad) life has thrown at me because I have learnt.

Every time I look back on Christmas' passed I am brought to my childhood. Growing up in an Orthodox Macedonian family, Christmas was always celebrated in January (7th) and although we also celebrated traditional Christmas, Orthodox Christmas is what stays in my mind the most. It wasn't so much about the presents, it was more about family and religion and what not. Even though I'm not religious anymore, I treasure those Christmas'.

The Christmas memory that sticks in my mind the most was an Orthodox Christmas when I was about 4 or 5. Traditionally the "man" of the house walks to the front door with a plate made up for "god" to invite "god" to our lovely Christmas dinner. Not living with my father meant my 6 or 7 year old brother did the job.

That specific year, mum decided to dress up as "god". She had a stocking over her head and wore baggy clothes. I have no idea why we didn't know it was her or why we didn't wonder where she was. Anyway, mum .. err .. "god" .. came down our driveway saying "I'm coming, I'm coming". My brother nearly dropped the plate and we ran inside. "God" came in with a Santa sack and asked if we had been good because if we hadn't, we would be taken away in "his" sack. My brother and I nodded and I remember being scared because I knew I had stuffed up somewhere along the line. Then I proceeded to cry and "god" left. Then mum came in shortly after and we told her what had happened.

I don't exactly remember when or how we realised it was mum the whole time, but we did.

The above story was in no way traumatising, it was funny, but only when we found out it was mum. It's a good memory and I always wonder what was going through mum's head to do that lol.

The next Christmas memory I have is a Christmas song I used to sing wrong (but cutely), about the same time (when I was 4 or 5). "We wish you a merry Christmas" was the song. I think I was singing a remix of that and the "Happy Birthday" song and proven by video tape recordings (which I can no longer locate), this is how I sang it:

We wish you a merry Christmas.
We wish you a merry Christmas.
We wish you a merry Christmas
and a happy to you!

Hope you all have a merry and safe Christmas and New Year!
xx

Dec. 15th, 2008

New Haircut and Colour! Woo!

Mmmm conservative? Or not? lol

and one for the road..

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Dec. 13th, 2008

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Ok so at the moment all is well in the life of LuLu!

Things with the guy from the last post are allllll goooodd now if not even better than they were.

Today I headed out on an expedition to buy a cross trainer!

My gym membership ran out so now I was debating whether to renew or just start training at home. My gym doesn't open very early and it closes pretty early in the evening so I didn't get to go as often as I'd liked to have gone.

I went into Rebel Sport in search of some equipment and came to the realisation, that cross trainers are effing massive and I really have no place for it at home. I have a place to put it whilst working out but when I'm not working out, it doesn't fold up or anything so I have nowhere to store it in between! =\

I then looked into maybe getting a treadmill or a bike instead. Treadmill's at least fold up, but they're still fairly big, so I almost decided on a bike but I'm still not too sure (due to lack of storage space)!!!

At the moment I think I'll just go for runs in the morning and after work, once this rainy weather stops and possibly consider a bike later on.

Anyway, I ended up buying some dumbells, a bar and weights for squats, some gloves because damn bars hurt your hands, a medicine ball (for sit ups etc), one of those big fit balls, I guess for sit ups and stuff as well and a mat so I don't have to lay on the floor while doing these things. I'm going to start running and stuff soon so I'm all pumped for at home fitness as opposed to gym fitness.

I just think I'll be heaps more comfortable at home and since I can work out anytime, it'll work heaps better with my schedule. Now especially, because mum's overseas so I have the cooking and cleaning and stuff to do after work so I won't get to work out until late!

Tomorrow my brother's girlfriend and I are going to dye each other's hair which should be fun. Nothing drastic, just normal colour lol.

Enjoy your weekend!

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Dec. 2nd, 2008

I take it all back

Just like a fallen leaf, the idea of him is whisked away by the wind.

I'm not sad I can't be close to him, I'm happy he's so far away, it makes this easier to stop, to give up, to let go of. The events of late have made me slightly lose interest in him. I don't know if it's temporary due to my.. let's say.. darkened mood, or whether I'm simply disgusted with his actions, or lack thereof.. no, it's his actions.

I'm confused, angry, sad and pissed off. Why are exes such fuckheads? It's like their only purpose is to meddle and fuck future potentials up. No, not like, it IS their only purpose.. and you let them do it.

The only people in your life, are the people you choose to keep there. If these are the people around you, I don't want to be. I'd rather stay here.. I kinda like my new computer desk anyway.

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Nov. 30th, 2008

Those who think being a mother would be easy

Those people who think being a mother would be easy work.. haven't met my 2 brothers!

I'm so pooped from cleaning! =(

AND I'M STILL NOT DONE! Grr lol

Well.. it has to be done!

I don't mind cleaning, but scrubbing a toilet is never a pleasure to do!!!

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It's sad

It's sad to think that he is so far away yet I feel as though he is so close.. like I could almost feel his touch, feel his breath on my neck on those cold nights, but I can't.

It's sad that such a potentially good thing can't take it's natural course due to distance, measurements, metrics, kilometres, metres, arm lengths wide enough to hug him 100,000 times over, never ending hugs.. how awesome that would be.

It's sad that things have to be so complicated, so difficult, so different and oh so good all at the same time.

It's sad to think about it all.

And it's fucking annoying that I can't stop.

I can't stop thinking about him when I'm not talking to him and I don't know why and I can't change it.

And I don't want to..

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Nov. 27th, 2008

It sucks!

Today it's been a month since I turned 21.
A month since my Grandpa passed away.
Almost a month since I started my new job.

A lot has changed in my life, but simultaneously not much has changed at all.

I'm mothering the boys, cooking awesome food, mourning my Grandpa, missing my mum, feeling lonely, yet feeling like I don't have enough time to myself.. never enough Lulu time.

And I don't know why but I keep meeting really decent guys, except there's always a catch lately and it's really starting to bug me!

I can't hate these people because they haven't done anything wrong, things just can't or won't work.

All in all.. my life's feeling sucky at the moment. So many things have gone wrong. Will this strike of bad luck go away soon?

I'm going to go check my Powerball ticket.

Cya.

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